A Few Weeks Ago, I wrote about my struggles of watching my (in-law) family move on and my feelings of being replaced. I have to say, I am astounded and humbled by the, literal, outpouring of love and support that has come my way since then.
Whether it was my need to just get things off my chest, or that it was God calling me to share my feelings and be the voice to others, I am proud for allowing myself to open up and have the courage to share my deeper side with you.
But, as I stated in my previous post, its time to move on. After nearly a year of living with my ex-husbands family, the time has come to move out on our own.
The kids and I finally got our own place. We will be moving this weekend, and I can say God has lead me down a path that, not only, scares me to death, but excites me at the same time. I have been daydreaming of the day that I could support the kids on my own and move out.
To be honest, I only thought this day would come if I got married, or won the lottery. Being a single mom, struggling to be self-sufficient, and trying to fill the role of two parents isn’t ever easy.
Although it has been a blessing to have a roof over our heads and food to eat, Im sure you can imagine it has been tough living with my ex-husbands family. Especially on my dating life! haha….
I have struggled with the feelings of feeling like I’m “homeless”, worthless, not a good mom, and feeling like i have failed at creating a secure and stable environment for my kids.
I have been told by many people, including family, that I need to focus on and try to find a guy that is financially able and willing to help support me and the kids; in order for us to move out and be on our own.
This has been a huge pill for me to swallow; I was always taught that I could do anything I set my mind to, and should never rely on someone else to take care of me. So why I have I let this one statement of a lie hold me back for so long?
Fear of the unknown, fear that i’m not good enough, and fear that i truly am not capable of taking care of the kids, house, and bills on my own.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” -Deuteronomy 31:6
But with God, there is no Fear. God has led me to this point, and I know he wouldnt just lead me here and not make a path for me to succeed. I can and will make it, and I know because I have God on my side, I never have to do it completely on my own, and neither do you.
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
God wants us all to succeed, and lead a life full of love, contentment, and prosperity.
To be such a close witness of compassion, love, and support in my in-laws, has been a real blessing. They didnt have to take me and the kids in, and support me in my time of need, especially because it was their sons time of need as well, but they did.
I truly believe this is what Jesus would do; He doesnt care what you have done, who you’ve become, or what bridges you’ve burned; He loves you in spite of all that.
I am so thankful, humbled, and excited for everything that has come my way, because I know it’s leading me up to something. God has a bigger and better plan.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11
I dont need anyone to “take care” of me, or do things for me, because I have God lighting my way and showing me how to do it for myself. My prayer is that you can have the same unfaltering Faith and know the Love of God’s wisdom and grace, so he too can light the path for you.
God Bless xoxo,